Hi Natasha
I hate it too. I feel like anger turns me into a monster. I'm not around people most of the time (I work online), so it doesn't affect anyone but me. I'm sad about my lack of control over anger. It often comes from frustration with some technical problem I encounter.
I live it as a failure to rise above the pettiness of it all.
My only consolation is that usually, it doesn't last long!
Ephesians 4:26-27 MSG
Go ahead and be angry. You do well to be angry—but don’t use your anger as fuel for revenge. And don’t stay angry. Don’t go to bed angry.