I'm Bipolar Too

When I look back on my bipolar breakdown in college, I always ask myself: "Could I have prevented it?"

Bipolar Disorder and Perfectionism: Am I a Perfectionist?

Someone referred to me as an extreme perfectionist, and it caused me to think about the connection between bipolar disorder and perfectionism

Bipolar and Relationships: When I Experienced Gaslighting

My ex-boyfriend used bipolar disorder as a way to maintain control in the relationship. I am sharing my experience with gaslighting. Take a look

Bipolar 2 Disorder, Binge Eating and My Body

The extremes of bipolar disorder affect my body in many ways, such as binge eating. This has taken a toll on my body. See what I'm doing about that

Benefits of Having a Friend with Bipolar Disorder

There are many advantages of having a friend with bipolar disorder. Discover ways I contribute to my friendships as someone living with bipolar 2

Bipolar Insecurities: Am I Obnoxious?

The symptoms of bipolar disorder, like hypomania, can make you feel insecure. Let me give you an example of a bipolar insecurity that I live with.

When People Reject Your Diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder

When people reject your bipolar diagnosis, they either ignore that it is a real condition or seem to disbelieve you. Here's how to handle that

Bipolar Disorder and Learning to Love Yourself

Learning to love yourself can be a major challenge while trying to balance the extremes of bipolar disorder. Read more on my HealthyPlace bipolar 2 blog

Bipolar Disorder and Feeling Unlovable

Bipolar Disorder and Extreme Empathy

Bipolar and Relationships: When I Experienced Gaslighting

My Bipolar Breakdown: Could I Have Prevented It?

Bipolar Disorder and Cigarette Smoking: Why We Do It

Recent Comments

I have bipolar 1. Give her time. She knows how awesome you are, her mom knows how awesome you are. and I am sure she is trying to be the best version of herself for you. I've been married 11 yrs and I can't count the number of times I told my husband that I wanted to live alone - really to just get my act together. No one has any idea how extremely challenging it is to have Bipolar 1. We don't even understand our own feelings. The most messed up thing is we don't know if we're gonna wake up motivated or depressed. We don't know if we can commit to meetings we agreed to in the evening because our energy and emotions don't really synchronize well. I had times when I had so much motivation to do stuff, but i have zero energy and end up crying and frustrated - you don't want to see this in your partner. FYI - Meds for bipolar is a trial and error type of thing - they prescribe meds, you take it for 2 weeks, wait to see if it works for, only to find it doesn't. Then you go change meds again - only to go through the same cycle again. The side effects of tremors, losing hair, and crying because we think nothing will cure, is something we don't want anyone to see.

I can speak for my self that once I have the right concoction of meds, plus the right therapist, it was heaven for everyone. Fun conversations, energetic, etc. The lows are still there but it's not as bad. My hubby said I bounce back faster than I used to, and don't pick fights anymore. And my husband has ADHD he can tolerate and forget and forgive me faster than typical people without mental health disorders. So give her time and a lot of reassurance. In the meantime maybe there is something you can do like consulting with a psychiatrist on how to help someone with bipolar and reallly understanding the disorder.

I have been extremely sensitive since I was really young - 5 years old. I was a verbally, physically and sexually abused kid. Home was the most dangerous place for me. I learned not to trust anyone including my relatives. It had left me traumatized and I didn't even know it. I would ghost anyone - employers, friends, relatives, lovers. In arguments, I would shut down, pretend they don't exist, or runaway from home. Any slight raise of voice, criticism, disagreement, nasty comment, misunderstanding would send me ghosting someone.

I didn't know why I'd do it. After 39 years, I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 with psychotic symptoms, and generalized anxiety disorder. I still don't know why I ghost people but I feel like once I ghost, I feel this numb feeling that people I care about don't love me as much as I love them when they can just hurt me so easily by saying mean things, not making time, not listening, not speaking nicely, etc. I just was afraid of confrontation because I realized I can't control my own emotions when I'm upset. I realized I get angry rarely but when I do, it's very explosive to the point that the relationship would be irreparable on my end. I'm just overall not a very forgive and forget type of person. It's for me the feeling of betrayal - whether a close friend promising to be at my birthday party and doesn't do it, etc. I simply cant take it. I work with a psychiatrist and psychologist to get help. I also have medications.

Jimmy

I am
Going thru the same thing as of tonite
I am not gonna be taking mine back either and I understand the whole reason and what not
Something’s you can’t unwind from

Shawn Osborn

Hang in there. It takes love and understanding. You sound like a real nice person. I hope it works out.

Fess

I was in the most loving, caring, supportive, fun, fulfilling, blissful relationship of my life, with my bf of 2.5 years who lives with bipolar disorder. I was by his side for several manic and depression episodes and our relationship was still strong as ever. I saw myself spending the rest of my life with him, through the good and the bad.

Suddenly, on Christmas Day before we were meant to go to my parents for dinner I messaged him to see if I could come pick him up and I got a reply saying he is done with me, and blocked me on everything before I could respond. His message said he has gone through my phone, doesn’t like that I’m still friends with a ex who had texted me so he’s done with me and will find a new home for our dog. A week before he had expressed support for me being friends with this ex and we discussed boundaries.

I spent a week fighting with the person he gave the dog too and finally got my dog back (thank god) , but still no word from him. I am in a world of pain right now and the uncertainty of not knowing if he is ok, was this premeditated, is there someone else ect, is killing me. But despite all the pain, I am still greatful I got to experience a love like that in my life. After 2.5 years we were still in the honeymoon period. I think living with bipolar may have given him some really good qualities too - passion, creativity, empathy, compassion, understanding of mental health. I’m heartbroken, but I would not take back the relationship for anything.